I will live in spite of you;
pull my oars one by one,
water churning the miles gone.
Squint my eyes,
suck back my tears -
Use my metacortex
to combat these fears
'cause fuck! biting the bullet -
I will make that bullet my gem.
Hold tight to my ration,
my reason,
my rationality -
my ship floating in the
dark sea you left me.
I spit the salt
'cause I know these rains -
I will weather this storm.
Take my dry bones and
Six Years I laughed at your morbid jokes.
Five Years You said you were in love.
Four Years Moved in together.
I asked you to marry me.
Three Years Our wedding day.
I started disappointing you.
Two Years You stopped forgiving me.
I saw her first beside the bay,
her hair caught up by the breeze;
a full minute I stood, all forgotten
in the wake of her; I remembered
as a boy being caught by surf and
nearly drowned, in tumbling waters;
I gasped, for fear I'd drown again,
my feet firmly on the earth.
She was still young enough
to be unaffectedly adorable;
unself-conscious enough
to be accidentally gorgeous;
She had sight and poise
enough to hold her wisdom;
Grace enough to blush when
she stole this sailors' heart.
Bright and vivacious her
clever mind shone out from
green eyes like a warning -
"There will be rocks, but
I will help you find them."
She